Unlovable
Lyrics
Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Am I unlovable?
Cynical, jaded, faithless, disappointed, disillusioned, used
If I could take back all my sweat, my tears, my sex, my joy I would
My time, my love, my effort, passion, dedication
In case of mistaken identity I gave these things to you
If I sound angry, bitter, sad, infatuated, it's the truth
Denial, anger, bargaining, depression, just a few
Stages of acceptance that it's really over
It's just so complicated and I'm stupid for believing in you
You make me feel like my father never loved me
You make me feel like the act of love is empty
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?
I had your back, I held you up, I told you you were good enough
It was not reciprocated, you kept affection and yourself apart
You fed your love to me like crumbs to pigeons in the park
Sometimes I think it satisfied to see me begging like a dog
I wasn't armoured, you were king, I gave my everything
Because sometimes you showed me just a hint of you within
For just a moment I romanticised the notion
I can take away the torment, I can love you like they never did
You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?
Is my heart unbreakable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise?
Are my lips unkissable?
Are my eyes unlookable?
Is my sex undoable?
Am I unlovable?
Are my words unlistenable?
Are my hands untouchable?
Am I undesirable?
Am I unlovable?
You make me feel like my father never loved me
You make me feel like the act of love is empty
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?
You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?
Is my skin untouchable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you don't like?
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
You make me feel like the act of love is empty (I felt so empty)
Am I so unlovable?
Is my heart unbreakable?
Do I remind you of a part of you that you despise?
You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
You make me feel like my father never loved me (you never loved me)
You make me feel like my mother, she abandoned me (you abandoned me)
What Darren wrote about the song
"My favorite song on the record. It's essentially an unsent letter that became a song. At the end of a relationship I was feeling all of the things you feel when love is denied. I felt abandoned I guess.
I wrote a poem where essentially I said 'My Father never loved me. I know it's not true. But that's how you made me feel. You made me feel like my father never loved me'. Now I sent neither the letter or the poem to my lover. I kept them hidden until one day during recording my manager spoke of how revealing and personal my new album was shaping up to be. She explained how proud she was of my bravery, but that she felt there may still be something I had yet to say. Five minutes later Robert and I went into the studio downstairs while the managers were upstairs drinking wine, and came up with this song.
It's so immediate and so raw. The first time I sang it is what you hear on the record. It almost made me cry and you can pick up on that I think. One of my favorite lyrics ever are the first few lines. Because... denial , anger , bargaining and depression are the first four stages of grief. Acceptance being the final one. And in this song I guess I experience all five of them. I'm glad I never sent the letter but I'm happy the experience gave me this song. What I learned from this is that the anger and emptiness that I felt as a child and in relating to my parents was something I had been carrying with me into my relationships.
This song was the moment I realized that had to change for good."